“Spiritual” awakening does not seem to be in anyone’s hands – it happens to some apparent people.
When the compulsion to awaken happens, there is nothing to be done. Yesterday in satsang, I compared it to a spinning top. Almost all societal, familial, religious, spiritual, psychological and personal injunctions are to keep your top spinning as fast as possible. But when awakening begins to happen, the top begins to slow down and wobble. So we rush off to find a way to keep it spinning, a new teaching, a new project, a new relationship, a new course or seminar,…whatever.
But slowly, slowly, the top goes back to wobbling and then one day it just falls over and stops forever. And then it is seen there is no top. It is not something we are, it is something we do.
Our satsang is full of wobbling tops. Some have fallen over. Those that want to keep spinning as fast as possible do not stick around for long! This is a description, not a prescription. You know whether you are a wobbling top or not!
And special thanks to all the wobbling tops who come to satsang! 
The Heart of Conscious Living 